When there is nothing left to burn You have to set yourself on fire 當沒東西可扔進火坑裡 自己就必須跳進去了
God that was strange to see you again Introduced by a friend of a friend Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before' In that instant it started to pour 天啊,再見到你是多麼的奇怪 經由朋友的朋友介紹你的存在 (我)笑著然後說著「噢,我想我們好像見過面。」 在那時大雨(回憶)傾瀉而下
Captured a taxi despite all the rain We drove in silence across Pont Champlain And all of that time you thought I was sad I was trying to remember your name 在大雨中我們共乘一台計程車 車經Champlain橋時我們無言以對 此時你想我沈溺在悲傷的情緒裡 其實我只是在想你的名字而已
This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin You tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in And now you're outside me you see all the beauty Repent all your sin 這個(曾愛過的)疤痕就像我皮膚上的一個斑點 你試圖想闖進來但你終究無法達成 你只能在外面看見我的美貌 懺悔著你的罪孽
It's nothing but time and a face that you'll lose I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose I'll write you a postcard, I'll send you the news From the house down the road, from real love 你失去的不過就是時間和張面孔 我選擇去感受過往而你沒選擇的餘地 我會寫張明信片給你,將捎個訊息給你 從這條路中的房子裡,從真正的愛情裡
Live through this and you won't look back Live through this and you won't look back Live through this and you won't look back 就這樣活下去吧你也沒辦法回頭看了
There's one thing I have to say so I'll be brave You were what I wanted, I gave what I gave I'm not sorry I met you I'm not sorry it's over I'm not sorry there's nothing to save I'm not sorry there's nothing to save 因為有件事要說所以我會堅強 你曾經是我想要的,我也給了我能給的 我不後悔我遇見你 我不後悔這一切都結束了 對於一切都沒剩下我也不會覺得遺憾
1. 美國心理學協會(APA)的立場已經改變,首先,她不再全然否定“Sexual Orientation Change Effort” (SOCE)的有效性,只說是“unlikely to be successful”,也不再說是必然有害,而是“involve some risk of harm”
這點APA開宗明義說明了進行這項 系統性文獻回顧的結果:「The task force conducted a systematic review ofthe peer-reviewed journal literature on sexual orientation change efforts(SOCE) and concluded that efforts to change sexual orientation are unlikely to be successful and involve some risk of harm, contraryto the claims of SOCE practitioners and advocates」
您可以看到的是,關先生所引用的文字是沒錯的:Sexual orientation are unlikely to be successful and involve somerisk of harm,但是這點後面接的逗點您有看到嗎?contrary to the claims of SOCE practitioners and advocates,全文翻譯下來應該是這樣的:「──對於性傾向治療不可能成功,並會牽連某種程度的傷害,與SOCE的治療者與支持者所聲稱的並不相符。」
任何一篇嚴謹的科學實證文獻不會用絕對性的字眼,特別是這種重大聲明與系統性文獻回顧的文章更不可能。
2. 最重要的是,他們鼓勵成員,提供一種合宜和肯定性的介入:appropriate affirmative intervention,不再提gay affirmative。……後面說得很清楚:“without imposing a specific sexual orientation and identity outcome”, 很明顯,APA的立場已經比之前開放了,開始尊重後同的人權,即是他們自決和尋求治療的權利。
這裡就犯了錯誤引用的問題,同樣的,appropriate affirmative intervention 同樣是有提到的,但是我想請您看原文:「Even though the research and clinical literature demonstrate that same-sex sexual and romantic attractions, feelings, and behaviors are normal and positive variations of human sexuality, regardless of sexual orientation identity, the task force concluded that the population that undergoes SOCE tends to have strongly conservative religious views that lead them to seek to change their sexual orientation. Thus,the appropriate application of affirmative therapeutic interventions for those who seek SOCE involves therapist acceptance, support, and understanding of clients and the facilitation of clients’ active coping, social support, an identity exploration and development, without imposing a specific sexual orientation identity outcome.」您可以看到原文前接了一個thus(因而),所以我們不能把前面那句話給省略不看,我們反推上一句在說的內容「Even though the research and clinical literature demonstrate that same-sex sexual and romantic attractions, feelings and behaviors are normal and positive variations of human sexuality, regardless of sexual orientation identity, the task force concluded that the population that undergoes SOCE tends to have strongly conservative religious views that lead them to seek to change their sexual orientation.」拙譯如下:「即使研究與臨床文獻顯示對於同性的性、愛、感覺與行為是正常且是人類性傾向的正面變異,即使性取向已確認(為正常),本次專案小組歸納接受SOCE的族群傾向有強烈(strongly)保守宗教觀點,這會讓他們尋求改變性傾向。」
2. 因為接受SOCE的族群傾向有強烈的保守宗教觀點,進而尋求改變性傾向。因而(thus)對於那些要接受SOCE的人,APA建議要給予適當的支持治療介入策略(the appropriate application of affirmative)
A:給予適當的支持治療是對於那些因強烈保守宗教理想的人想因此改變性傾向才要做的。
3. 並且建議這些遵從APA治療策略的臨床工作者:「without imposing a specific sexual orientation identity outcome.(不要影響特定的性傾向認同結果 )」
另外於這篇文獻回顧裡有提到「The results of scientifically valid research indicate that it is unlikely that individuals will be able to reduce same-sex sexual attractions or increase other-sex attractions through SOCE.」拙譯如下:「結果以科學地驗證現有的研究,指出個人不會因為接受了SOCE而會降低對於同性的吸引力或增加對於其他性別的吸引力。」;此外,更提到了「The available evidence, from both early and recent studies, suggests that although sexual orientation is unlikely to change, some individuals modified their sexual orientation identity (i.e., individual or group membership and affiliation, self-labeling) and other aspects of sexuality (i.e., values and behavior). 」拙譯如下:「從早期與現有的可行證據,建議雖然性傾向不能改變,有些個案在接受SOCE之後修正了性向認同(個人或族群、自我標記)與其他性傾向的觀點(像是價值觀與行為)」。但是最後APA提到「The goal of treatment is for the client to explore possible life paths that address the reality of their sexual orientation while considering the possibilities for a religiously and spiritually meaningful and rewarding life.」「個案治療的目標是探索人生可能的路徑並在宗教、精神的有意義的人生裡確立他們真實的性傾向」
同時,『而且隨著心理輔導和其他科學上的進步,我們完全可以期許,在未來的性傾向轉換,會越來越輕易。』 我可以告訴您的是:APA那篇指引是2009年所出版的,而後,於2012年APA與American Medical Association (AMA), American Academy of Pediatrics (AAP), American Psychoanalytic Association, California Medical Association (CMA), National Association of Social Workers (NASW)這些單位共同出版的報告裡提及: 「Homosexuality Is a Normal Expression of Human Sexuality, Is Generally Not Chosen, and Is Highly Resistant to Change .」(ref.:http://www.apa.org/about/offices/ogc/amicus/windsor-us.pdf),與時俱進,在2012年更明確的告訴您同性戀不是選擇,並在改變上具有高難度。這樣您還是對於您所提的性傾向轉換有高度期許嗎?
"I know there’s no way I can convince you this is not one of their tricks. But I don’t care. I am me.
我知道我沒辦法說服你這不是他們的小把戲之一,但我並不在乎,我就是我。
My name is Valerie. I don’t think i’ll live much longer, and I wanted to tell someone about my life. This is the only autobiography that i’ll ever write, and – God – i’m writing it on toilet paper.
I was born in Nottingham in 1985. I don’t remember much of those early years. But I do remember the rain. My grandmother owned a farm in Tottlebrook, and she used to tell me that God was in the rain.
I passed my eleven plus, and went to a girl’s grammar. It was at school that I met my first girlfriend. Her name was Sarah. It was her wrists – they were beautiful. I thought we would love each other forever. I remember our teacher telling us that it was an adolescent phase that people outgrew.
My father wouldn’t look at me. He told me to go and never come back. My mother said nothing.
我父親不願看我,他告訴我出去且不要再回來了。我母親沒說什麼。
I’d only told them the truth. Was that so selfish? Our integrity sells for so little, but it is all we really have.
我只是說了實話。那樣很自私嗎?真正的我們看起來是那麼微不足道,但那是我們所真正擁有的。
It is the very last inch of us.
那是我們之間僅存的最後一道防線。
And within that inch, we are free.
在那道防線之後,我們是自由的。
I’d always known what i’d wanted to do with my life, and in 2015 I started my first film: The Salt Flats.
我總是懂得人生中想做什麼,在2015年,我拍了第一部電影The Salt Flats
It was the most important role of my life. Not because of my career, but because that was how I met Ruth. The first time we kissed, I knew I never wanted to kiss any other lips but hers again.
We moved to a small flat in London together. She grew scarlet carsons for me in our window box. And our place always smelt of roses.
我們一起搬到了倫敦一間小公寓裡。她在窗外種了玫瑰,我們的住所總是聞得到玫瑰花香。
Those were the best years of my life.
那是我人生中最美好的時光。
But America’s war grew worse and worse, and eventually came to London.
但美國的戰爭越來越慘烈。最後,終於牽連到倫敦。
After that there were no roses anymore. Not for anyone.
在那之後,再也沒有玫瑰了。
I remember how the meaning of words began to change. How unfamiliar words like “collateral” and “rendition” became frightening. When things like norsefire and the articles of allegiance became powerful. I remember how different became dangerous.
I still don’t understand it: why they hate us so much.
我仍然不懂:為什麼他們如此憎恨我們。
They took Ruth while she was out buying food. I’ve never cried so hard in my life. It wasn’t long until they came for me.
他們在Ruth外出買食物的時候把她帶走。我從未哭的如此傷心。 不久後他們找上了我。
It seems strange that my life should end in such a terrible place.
在如此險惡的環境裡結束我的人生好像很奇怪。
But for three years I had roses – and apologised to no-one.
但三年裡我曾有玫瑰,以及,我不需向任何人道歉。
I shall die here. Every inch of me shall perish. Every inch.
我會在這逝世。所有有關我的一切都會消逝。
But one.
只有一項會留下。
An inch.
那一條防線。
It is small and it is fragile, and it is the only thing in the world worth having. We must never lose it or give it away. We must never let them take it from us.
那是如此細微極脆弱,以及那是這世上唯一值得擁有的事物。我們必須堅守,不讓他人所奪取。
I hope that - whoever you are - you escape this place. I hope that the world turns, and that things get better.
我希望-不論你是誰-你到這裡來了。我希望世界改變了,所有的事都逐漸好轉。
But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that even though I do not know you, and even though I may not meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you: I love you.